Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Who are you?





When you don't see someone for a long period of time, you begin to forget what they smell like, what they feel like, and what they look like. I have hit that point. J was sending me pictures of himself the other day and I couldn't even pick him out in some of the pictures. then there were some head shots of him and a few other people and some of them I had to stop and go 'that's not him. or is it?'


What a depressing time to realize that you don't even recognize a man you've been married to for 5 years. But the truth is, I am not the only one. There are thousands of men and women all over our country going through the same thing. I don't think that the general public truly understands what it is like. You can't tell me 'oh I get it! My husband is gone on business for three weeks at a time.' Oh really? Can he call home every night? Is he taking on small arms fire? Rockets? Bombs? IEDs? Is he watching his best friends get killed or injured daily? Is he gone for up to 18 months at a time? Unless he is, then no, you don't understand and you never will. Please don't try to sympathize with me and say that you get it, because honestly you don't and I'm glad that because my husband is serving there is a family out there who will never have to understand it. Our family is strong enough to get through it, I know there are a lot of families out there that aren't.